Its been one..year?

It's been awhile since I wrote a blog.

Not too long ago I was involved in a huge argument with someone I love. We are so blind and in a state of denial most of the time causing us not to see the problems we have before us. In our argument started the night before, leaving me feeling very uneasy about the future. I woke up the next morning feeling the worst I have felt in some time and when he tried to hug me that day, I couldn't even be touched. Its not until there is a confrontation for me to see the little things which contributed to the fire.

Fighting was the best plan of action for us. It took us letting out every frustration we had with the other in a calm manner, leaving room for discussion and compromising, to get over everything. Without a confrontation, things continually snowball until you are hit with an avalanche. At least this brought about a sense of awareness to our relationship and opened me up to see how he feels. I started out feeling as if there was an 85% chance we were breaking up a day before our anniversary on the 11th but after we fought and made up all in a few hours, I was sure we were stronger than ever.

Even though we have known each other for two years and dated for a year, I am continually finding little things about him I haven't noticed and we aren't tired of each other. We are friends with each others friends and his friends are friends with my girls as well. Its so funny how he can tell a story with so much enthusiasm and how loving he is.

For our anniversary I gave him a photo album with my favorite poem in the front and song quotes besides the pictures. I also gave him a Post Secret book with my own Post Secrets in it. He gave me roses in a vase, a beautiful pearl necklace and a mixed CD with great artists such as Queen and Boston.


Stasera,
Mary

Theatre of life

A wise man said Life is a stage
Then we are all marionettes
Spun by a creator

Our lives are but a tragedy and a comedy
Twist and turns of conflict and strife
Add drama to our lives

Awkward looks from a stranger
A comfortable glance from a lover
Day to day pleasantries carry us scene to scene

An emancipation, an extradition, a revolution
All is love in war and war in love
Opiate of the masses sedates into a coma

Blackouts lose sight
Losing touch, curtains close
Fate diverges and intersects

In a clash of events
Hate spills, discord disperses, lust impregnates
Only Hope remains

Hopes and Expectations

I'm not one for making goals and sticking to them but at least it helps me visualize how much work I still have in front of me.

1. Finish Chris' anniversary gift.
2. Get some reading done for Sociology/Political Science
3. Watch Goodbye Lenin
4. Deeply review Italian, mostly the grammer and vocabulary I skipped out on.
5. Write a blog in Italian
6. Save money for Europe and moving out
7. Get a game plan for working this summer at a second job.
8. Talk to Professor Shipka about minor
9. Make plans to visit Monica during winter break
10. Research to see if any of my favorite bands are coming close any year soon
11. Get a new haircut in about 6 weeks. I have bangs that swoop to the side but they used to also have the option of going straight down. I want both options and maybe all one length, take out the excessive layering. Somewhat like this haircut...
12. Pick up my disaster of a room
13. Buy foreign movies, especially Roberto Begnini's movies.
14. Find some form of exercise. I now weigh 3 pounds more than my max weight (110). I have been eating a little better but I still drink coffee drinks like mocha cremices and I eat ice cream and don't exercise often.

After seeing Whip It! I am inspired to lace up some four wheel skates. I don't like to workout in a gym, I prefer tennis or something outdoors and not boring. But I really want to try skating for the work out and improve coordination.

Ciao ragazzi!
Mary